No reason what so ever

I have been trying my utmost best to not be judgmental about others, particularly when you empathize and realize how much unnecessary hurt you could cost someone, and for no good reason.I would definitely feel horrible if I knew someone talked smack about me behind my back, more so if it was untrue. I would also feel like crap if someone I was talking smack about found out what I did.

But, it sort of saddens me to know that human beings are incapable of being straight forward and seem to feed on spreading rumours or being judgmental about others. My mum was recently talked bad about behind her back, of course this place is small and the person who spoke bad about her must have not been thinking before he/she spoke because, word was going to get round and it did.

And she was accused of being something so unbelievably untrue, it just kinda makes me sick.

Anyways, point is, please think before you speak. You have no idea how much hurt and trouble you could cause someone until it comes back and bites you in the ass…and trust me it will. It is so not worth doing, not to you and not to anyone else.

No reason what so ever.

Is Suffering…

from chronic boredom…
You cannot imagine how bored i feel. The state that i’m in is like being frozen alive in an Ice Cube where I can see everything that I want to do but cant.move.
HEEELLLLPPPPPPP!

Childhood revisited

Just got back home  a couple days ago and met up with some friends from when I was in primary school. Gosh… I haven’t seen them for almost ten years. All grown up but good to know that things haven’t changed that much.., we still act like idiots and play achilok duduk, fight and quarrel, irritate each other, then make up and remmy’s still short. The only thing that has changed is we look a little different.

Damn, wish i had taken some pictures.

Will do next time. Meantime, I’ve been eating my stomach to its limit… infact I’m pretty sure I’ve crossed that limit.

Sangeeta, Remmy, Rupinee, Neha and our new and youngest member Manisha, till our next appointment at Ananda Bhawan’s

Exams, Luck… alot of it.

Its amazing how things seem and remain so simple for some (particularly the male species) Girls have no choice. Though some are hormonal 247… some can’t help but be hormonal for at least a week in a month. When I say can’t help… i literally mean can’t help. Needless to say…. I’m going through it now. Forget the fact that its exam season now and I’m supposed to be studying, every emotion is heightened and they occupy my mind and push everything else out.

I’m restless and it’s the unproductive kind. Restless, super short attention span ( i blame this on technology) and zonked out of my mind without actually having taken anything. I keep wanting to do something but I’m not sure what it is and I’m annoying myself trying to figure it out.

Then there’s the unexpected distraction… I won’t go into it. Damn that distraction. Sorry, that’s all I can say

So, I made a promise to myself in the beginning of this semester that I am capable of doing great for my exams, I just never gave myself enough credit or came up with too many excuses as to why I did not have to do well. So stupid. I cringe.

So luck, does it help deal with all of this. Or is the comfort you get from hearing the words come from someone else, especially from those whom you know for a fact really mean it when they wish you? It’s a become a force of habit that when some one says it, it doesn’t seem to have its value anymore. Just like ‘I Love You’ or ‘Sorry’. Though, they’re the hardest to say when you actually mean it and unusually easy to say if it doesn’t really matter.

So Good luck to you too… I really hope you do well, I wan’t too aswell. I want to say more to you, but my mind, stupid logic and emotions restrain me from doing so. It’s a waste, I might still do it but I just don’t know.

Twilight in UNIMAS…. isn’t so bad

Cat and I decided that Instead of rolling all over our tiny little bed trying to sleeppp we’d just take a walk and meet half way (the middle of the bridge) and chill out till we didn’t feel like it anymore. Started at 2pm… I was a little worried walking out there cause it’s kinda freaky at night in certain places of the Uni, you know with ghost stories and what not.

Cat had to pee…so walked back to Cempaka (where she stays) to empty bladders and get camera.

this is a view of the Chancellery from the bridge…pretty cool. But it’s about 5.45am….

We were interrupted by the guards at like almost 3+ am… then they gave us those sweets and we started talking ghost stories! haha

This is the view across the lake…. kinda nice.. cant actually tell the difference from the water and the sky. It looks nothing like this in the day. In fact if you ask a Unimas student where this is, they probably wouldn’t recognise it.

Cat and I on the bridge. The guards took the pic cause cat went rambling on about it being my birthday to keep them from chasing us away! and i was frantically trying to remember the damn date! lol

THE END

RM 10 Fish n Chips…..

This is the only place where i can go when i’m starving and actually leave the place more than full, with some to spare… the portion is feakin huge… clearly there’s more fish then there are chips, but I’m not complaining.

gotta stop by this place and have the fish n chips, if ever anyone is in Kuching. Place is called Westwood.

Arial View, just to show I’m not exaggerating when i say it’s HUGE

Still cant sleep

Just got back from watching fast and furious 4. That movie brings back memories. Used to watch the first one with my brother over and over again. We were succers indeed, me for Vin Diesel and Paul Walker, Him for the cars obviously, actually for me the cars as well, but you probably wont believe it.

Wanted to Chill out yesterday/today, wasn’t a disappointment but i think I built it up too much.List of things that went wrong yesterday/today.

1. Suppose to finish up assignment work, but fell asleep instead.

2. Wanted to have awesome dinner, so chose a reliable place, one we’ve been to before. DISAPPOINTMENT, ended up in McD instead.

3. Went into the cinema, they played kung fu chefs or sumthin like that instead of Fast and Furious

…. If it was me writing this 4 months back, i would have stopped here. This is what the ( I hate to say it) “New” me would include

List of things that went right yesterday

1. Slept like the dead for the first time in 3 weeks

2. Hung out with a friend i haven’t spent much time with to just talk

3. Was embarrassed/surprised when a lecturer crept up behind us

4. Extremely disgusted and entertain by the the McFlurry ice-cream oozing out the pump as cat and I tried incessantly to tell the waitress to turn it off. (kinda yuck)

5. I ordered a McFlurry after that

6. Was entertained by Sammo Hung for a good 10mins

7. Cam whored while they changed the reel

8. Drooled over Vin Diesel, Paul Walker and the show was awesome for its visual effects, none the less.

Looks like the right list, is longer than the wrong. It was a good day.

Now, I’m gonna try to sleep.

Cant sleep

My biological clock is screwed up, its 3am in the morning and i’m wide awake. 6th day in a row…. hope its not the plague.

Dont know just what to do….

Have been completely swamped with assignments and presentations these past few weeks, havent slept well and am freakin tired. Then something happens and suddenly my mind is focused on something that shouldn’t and infact didn’t bother me before, but it does now. I look for it everytime I walk out of my room, secretly hoping I make some progressed today, but the fact will remain, as it always was that i will never find what i am looking for. No matter how much i hope.

Sepilok, Kampung Baru Fishing Village_051208

I was at a year end Brats work shop last year. (Brats is a young journalist programme by the Star) and it was in Sepilok, Sandakan, Sabah. Among the places that we went to was this fishing Village called Kampung Baru, the pics below are of the Kids and a little idea of what their life looks like…

Couple of boys intrigued by the Camera

All the houses are connected by board walks like this, so if you fall….you go straight in to the water

Couple of the facilitators and Brats hanging out on the Boardwalk with the kids from the kampung

A little girl i met at the Village, she started to cling to me after a while. I forgot her name….

the little girl high jacked my camera and started taking better pics than me!

A little kid reading a bulletin or something, I’m not sure if he’s actually reading it or just staring at it very intently.

To get to the Kampung, we had to track through the mangrove discovery center through a virgin jungle for about 2 hours, then take a boat rice out for about 15 mins. Its really small with about 150-200 people… a school is located right next tot he kampung on land. Kinda cool….